What would it be "if I...." (surrender)

"If I..." What a mystery word and description. Friends, tell you something that most of the Malaysian forgot. When things are impossible to happen, let say "if I", or "if he" or what so ever, the next word we going to read is "were". Just like Beyonce's song --> If I were a boy. So, Do you ever think of what would it be if you have done something? Hmm... Honestly, I think that. that's why I write here la. haha! So, It is good because GOD andswered my prayer for the past few days. Then I thank GOD in every circumstances. Sms-ing to the friends that I want to share. However, things were not smoothly the next day. Had been being a fool by other friends, having my FYP to busy with, quarreling with people... bla bla bla. Oh! GOD. Its a tough situation for me. Comes in one shot. Since then I started to have bad temper. Easily get angry, tired, and moody. What can I do? control myself lo. But it is really hard.
Today is father's day, Heard about the sermon on turn ur heart to our Father and father should also turn the heart to the children. Human's relationship is quite a complicated issue. sometimes you will feel very easy to take control but sometimes you even dont know what to do next. But then, after realize that what we have done whether it is right or wrong, we start to think what if I... haha! If you never think that then is fine. But I do think. To build a good relationship with friends is not as simple as clapping our hand. If it were like that, that will be awesome. But it doesn't. To look for a true friend or true relationship, we need to spend time to understand each other. Then, we start to accept who they are and who we are as well. So, when you have established a friendship or relationship, Someone is now very impotant to you. It will be hurt when someone hurt you. It takes time to recover. So, It happened to me. In the forward way and yet it happened backwardly. Means friends hurt me yet I also hurt friends. So, you know la. communication with conflict always happen. What can I do? So, The mystery word comes. What would it be if I... Sounds very stupid. Is not a good Idea in thinking that way when things already happened. But I still think. Human ma... haha! Moreover, we see that misunderstanding happen if we start to quiet ourselves by guessing people's thought. It happens to me. Thinking that what would it be if I also quiet myself without doing anything? Have a time to calm down and think deeply? Is it good? No answer...
Having said that, friendship and relationship are hard to establish. But GOD's way is different. Many times we fail to do our part between GOD and us, But GOD still our best friend. He never leave us. Not only GOD with us. Just as today sermon, though father and children are having a generation gap, But in Christ, There is love of GOD to break this generation gap. So, It simply means in Christ, friendship and relationship can also be established effectively and last forever. By GOD's grace, I had been chosen to be children of GOD. So, I found the comfort while facing problems. No more "what would it be if I..." But "Surrender" to GOD. Ask GOD for favour and wisdom to handle the tough situation. Just a simple request, GOD surely will answer and guide us. Thank GOD cause I have a great GOD in my life. haha!
Oops..! I'm here again. WIsh every father on earth "HAPPY FATHER"S DAY". Continue to be a great father for children. GOD bless you. :)

Cherish... (Holy Spirit)

Many times we go through our lives with confusion. We don't really look at what we have been through all the time. Yet sometimes, The Holy Spirit (who is GOD) will speak to us with a gentle voice. He instruct us to improve ourselves in GOD's point of view which can be say as GOD's will. Yet It is impossible for us to improve ourselves effectively. It is to be said that when we improve ourselves with some area of weaknesses, we will find that another weaknesses is coming up next. Then while at the same time we improve the other area of weaknesses, we will repeat the same manner of weaknesses that we improve previously. In other words, It is hard to change to be perfect person by ourselves. One thing I have learned in my life from the moment I believe in Jesus, That is never ever stop improving ourselves with the guidance of the Holy Spirit. Sometimes, I never really give time to the Holy Spirit for Him to instuct me. On 16th of June with a Discipleship Programme that in World Harvest Church (WHC) which is the church I'm attending currently, a bible scripture tells us that ...
"And do not grieve the Holy Spirit of God, by whom you were sealed for the day of redemption."
(Ephesians 4:30 NKJV)
Now, let me go into my real life experience. Come to the real life, I know many things is possible to happen anywhere, anytime or any how. Having said that, It really happened. I have been many times arguing with friends. Sometimes, I have a very strong self-defensive characteristic. Yet, I also have my own perspective person. Therefore, It causes some misunderstand and the undesirable feelings towards my friends. But it happen only sometimes. What is that I say "only sometimes" means that when the time I didn't consult the Holy Spirit. So, It cause a lot of conflicts and misunderstanding between two person. Really need a sensitive of sense to listen to the Holy Spirit while there are conflict, anger or argument. Sometimes, the Holy Spirit just said to me that i should do this and that, yet I can't listen clearly. This is what I feel frustrated of. But,
I thank GOD for my life for having wonderful friends. They didn't look at my weaknesses but my strength. As a malaysian, we always say that "friends never 'kira' too much". It just simply means friends is always caring, loving and helpful. So, GOD have clearly set the truew friendship in my life. This is what I want to cherish for the rest of my life. I want to say to my friends. Without you, my life will be very boring and adventureless.
All the time I mention that I'm grateful and thankful to my friends. But another friend of mine who is always beside me and holding my hand yet sometimes I treat Him very bad. By the way, He is the one who always influence me improve me. Yea...! He is GOD, the Holy Spirit.
Now, I just want to say to whoever read my blog. Think about those person who mean a lot to you. Cherish them. But the most that you will need to cherish is the Holy Spirit. He is the one who gives you everything. He gives you the life, experience, knowlegde and always beside you when you need helps.
"Father GOD, in my heart I thank GOD for giving me such a wonderful friends that You have prepared for me. They are amazing, special, and meaningful to me. Lord, I pray that Your blessing with flow among them as I want to bless them as well. Your Holy Spirit touch their heart as well so that they will know You the best friend they will ever have in their life. GOD, I give thanks to You for every journey I had gone through. Because You lead me all the way when I was facing difficulties. Thank You. In the name of Jesus I pray, Amen."

It is the time... (GOD is good, all the time)

Long time didn't visit and write my blog. I've been busy all the way. Now I know it is not easy to become a final year student in University. Good advise for those who still in the mid-moment in University life, you will need to pay attention and learn as much as you can. It is good if you try it your own for new things. Now talk about me. FYP?? What's that? Final Year Project. Last time always heard from my friends: "Oh no. no time for preparation la." "Sorry, I need to do my research for FYP." "Haizz..!! Don't know how to do my thesis." "WHAT's the FYP's title about?" I thought is only they are expecting for higher result and just feel stress on it. But now I know. It is a very difficult project to be accomplished. Somemore i know nothing on the FYP's title I chose. What to do? just do it lo (Nike brand :).
Funny lecturer for the first day of my class. New semester started. It is the time to be serious. "I dont want my students to be a spoon feeding student. I want a serious learner. bla bla bla... I emphasize that I want a serious learner." "What's the time now?" "Are you guys with me?" Those words will always been listened everytime in her class. Yet she is a good lecturer. But she is not a good helper. Haha!! Anyway, need to follow her style for this semester. No choise. :(
Time pass and I get my another timetable for my part time job. Monday is a busy day. 3 classes continuously. Huuu.... Tired. Anyway, GOD's grace is sufficient for me. He will strengthen me. Now I know it is the time. For He says to me. "Dont just read it. You need to live it." FYP, lecturer that want me to feed myself with the knowledge, Tired part time job... These 3 things showing me that it is a challenging semester. So, I can't just be passive anymore. It is the time to move on and take a step in front.
Today, It is a wonderful day again. All started with prayer before went out from home. Everything was lead by GOD. Finish all the registration that would need to be done. After that started the first day of my part time job. First class was fine to me. But, the second class required me to teach in English. Oh, man! I was so nervous and helpless. FYI, I am poor in English speaking. Again! What to do? Pray lo. Pray and pray and pray. So, I just spoke confidently. As a result, It's amazing. I felt myself like a lecturer. lecturing the students. Thank GOD. haha! At night. Studied some reference books on my FYP. Suddenly felt that it is interesting and want to try it out by my own. Like the feeling of "YA! I've found it!" It is good. Now friends, want to share with you a great song that I like it so much. I've been singing this song on friend's wedding for twice. Yet It still a great song in my heart. Enjoy!!

Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me. God is good (all the time...
(Psalms 23:4)