It is amazing..!!!

Surprising, unbelievable, It's amazing and wonderful.
Hard to believe that I can still hold on after sleep for only one hour. Sunday if GOD's day. totally surrender to GOD. but how am I going to attend the Praise Celebration and listen to the sermon that will be shared by Pastor for I only slept one hour before the service is start. Didn't rest well, heart full of depression, sleepy face to meet with church member, etc. O, GOD, You are the strength of my heart. The word that motivates my heart always because GOD really provide and strengthen me for the past. But will it also be for this difficult moment? Undeniable, It's a amazing!

All start from last night (25th Of April). study life non-stopping sustained though it feels stressful in my heart. A lot of notes and terms need to memorize. So, stay at my friend's house to look for guidance on my question in studies. Until 3am or 4am on 26th of April. It was so sudden and feel like want to share things to friends. Unfortunately, a course mate of mine was wanting to study and was interested by my sharing. It was a good sharing between both of us. Without knowing the time pass, it already reach the time when everyone suppose to wake up and continue their daily life. My goodness, It was 6am in the morning!!! Hahaha! It's time to realize that the time was so early in the morning instead of late at night. So, went to bed and sleep. But I need to wake up at 8am. GOD helps me!

Time goes from minutes to minutes and from second to second. Just as what I had planned, wake up at 8am and went back to my own home. without doubting, straight away i lied down at the sofa and guess what..... just sleep. It was not a deep and comfortable rest but at least it considered as rest. Yet, it was still not enough. Reach home at 830am and then woke up at 9.10am. Haha! guess what..?? Again, tiredness, sleepy face just appeared on my ugly face. But, GOD is the strength of my heart. Therefore, I went for breakfast with my brother and sister-in-law. Rushing in having my breakfast due to the service time which starts at 10am.

Finally, i reach church. Wuu...huuu.... lesser members in church. So, just had a sit then start to pray in my heart.
"O, Lord. I know You are the strength of my heart. I keep meditate this word in my heart everyday and night. I desire Your presence and Your Power to feel me. Lord, This is me now that full of tiredness. But i believe by Your Grace, I can stand strong again even stronger than before. I believe and I believe and I BELIEVE. In Jesus' name, Amen"
So, guess what again. still feeling tired. The time to worship GOD started. A song that touch me with the lyrics:
I surrender all to You..... I am nothing without You....
I lay it all down at Your feet.
O, man. really touch my heart. it feels like i m really a weak person. Without GOD i am nothing. That's why I lay it all down to GOD. So, nothing was make me feeling better of the tiredness.
Next, Pastor was preaching. It was a long sermon that i didn't expected from the moment i stepped into the church. But I was totally understand and get what GOD want to speak to me through Pastor. Everything got time and season. Just need to confirm and walk close with GOD. You will certainly know when.

So, from 10am to 1pm. The service over. Again, the tiredness still there. But when I seriously look and think back, what sustained me and giving me the heart to insist to be awaken. It was the word of GOD and the presence of GOD. I know that I know that I know It comes from the strength from the Lord. Yeah! i made it by GOD's grace. Again I learned something. Jesus is the GOD gives renewal in my heart. He renewed my soul and spirit without my knowledge until He says It's time for you to rest. Haha! It is true. After the service, I continue to go my friends house for my preparation on my exam. But, when i reach there, just in a minutes, I slept deeply. Haha! Thank GOD for let me experience Him again and again.

"O, Father. I am nothing without You. In my heart, I pray GOD. guide me in my studies. Exam coming is just a few hours later. Pray that GOD pour Your understanding on the theory and notes that I need to study. Do this to my dearest friends in my life who facing exam with me as well, Lord. Thank You, Lord again for let me experience Your greatness. Bless me, my family and my friends, Lord. In Jesus' name, Amen."

Life is so wonderful. Thanks to my family and all my friends.