What would it be "if I...." (surrender)

"If I..." What a mystery word and description. Friends, tell you something that most of the Malaysian forgot. When things are impossible to happen, let say "if I", or "if he" or what so ever, the next word we going to read is "were". Just like Beyonce's song --> If I were a boy. So, Do you ever think of what would it be if you have done something? Hmm... Honestly, I think that. that's why I write here la. haha! So, It is good because GOD andswered my prayer for the past few days. Then I thank GOD in every circumstances. Sms-ing to the friends that I want to share. However, things were not smoothly the next day. Had been being a fool by other friends, having my FYP to busy with, quarreling with people... bla bla bla. Oh! GOD. Its a tough situation for me. Comes in one shot. Since then I started to have bad temper. Easily get angry, tired, and moody. What can I do? control myself lo. But it is really hard.
Today is father's day, Heard about the sermon on turn ur heart to our Father and father should also turn the heart to the children. Human's relationship is quite a complicated issue. sometimes you will feel very easy to take control but sometimes you even dont know what to do next. But then, after realize that what we have done whether it is right or wrong, we start to think what if I... haha! If you never think that then is fine. But I do think. To build a good relationship with friends is not as simple as clapping our hand. If it were like that, that will be awesome. But it doesn't. To look for a true friend or true relationship, we need to spend time to understand each other. Then, we start to accept who they are and who we are as well. So, when you have established a friendship or relationship, Someone is now very impotant to you. It will be hurt when someone hurt you. It takes time to recover. So, It happened to me. In the forward way and yet it happened backwardly. Means friends hurt me yet I also hurt friends. So, you know la. communication with conflict always happen. What can I do? So, The mystery word comes. What would it be if I... Sounds very stupid. Is not a good Idea in thinking that way when things already happened. But I still think. Human ma... haha! Moreover, we see that misunderstanding happen if we start to quiet ourselves by guessing people's thought. It happens to me. Thinking that what would it be if I also quiet myself without doing anything? Have a time to calm down and think deeply? Is it good? No answer...
Having said that, friendship and relationship are hard to establish. But GOD's way is different. Many times we fail to do our part between GOD and us, But GOD still our best friend. He never leave us. Not only GOD with us. Just as today sermon, though father and children are having a generation gap, But in Christ, There is love of GOD to break this generation gap. So, It simply means in Christ, friendship and relationship can also be established effectively and last forever. By GOD's grace, I had been chosen to be children of GOD. So, I found the comfort while facing problems. No more "what would it be if I..." But "Surrender" to GOD. Ask GOD for favour and wisdom to handle the tough situation. Just a simple request, GOD surely will answer and guide us. Thank GOD cause I have a great GOD in my life. haha!
Oops..! I'm here again. WIsh every father on earth "HAPPY FATHER"S DAY". Continue to be a great father for children. GOD bless you. :)

Cherish... (Holy Spirit)

Many times we go through our lives with confusion. We don't really look at what we have been through all the time. Yet sometimes, The Holy Spirit (who is GOD) will speak to us with a gentle voice. He instruct us to improve ourselves in GOD's point of view which can be say as GOD's will. Yet It is impossible for us to improve ourselves effectively. It is to be said that when we improve ourselves with some area of weaknesses, we will find that another weaknesses is coming up next. Then while at the same time we improve the other area of weaknesses, we will repeat the same manner of weaknesses that we improve previously. In other words, It is hard to change to be perfect person by ourselves. One thing I have learned in my life from the moment I believe in Jesus, That is never ever stop improving ourselves with the guidance of the Holy Spirit. Sometimes, I never really give time to the Holy Spirit for Him to instuct me. On 16th of June with a Discipleship Programme that in World Harvest Church (WHC) which is the church I'm attending currently, a bible scripture tells us that ...
"And do not grieve the Holy Spirit of God, by whom you were sealed for the day of redemption."
(Ephesians 4:30 NKJV)
Now, let me go into my real life experience. Come to the real life, I know many things is possible to happen anywhere, anytime or any how. Having said that, It really happened. I have been many times arguing with friends. Sometimes, I have a very strong self-defensive characteristic. Yet, I also have my own perspective person. Therefore, It causes some misunderstand and the undesirable feelings towards my friends. But it happen only sometimes. What is that I say "only sometimes" means that when the time I didn't consult the Holy Spirit. So, It cause a lot of conflicts and misunderstanding between two person. Really need a sensitive of sense to listen to the Holy Spirit while there are conflict, anger or argument. Sometimes, the Holy Spirit just said to me that i should do this and that, yet I can't listen clearly. This is what I feel frustrated of. But,
I thank GOD for my life for having wonderful friends. They didn't look at my weaknesses but my strength. As a malaysian, we always say that "friends never 'kira' too much". It just simply means friends is always caring, loving and helpful. So, GOD have clearly set the truew friendship in my life. This is what I want to cherish for the rest of my life. I want to say to my friends. Without you, my life will be very boring and adventureless.
All the time I mention that I'm grateful and thankful to my friends. But another friend of mine who is always beside me and holding my hand yet sometimes I treat Him very bad. By the way, He is the one who always influence me improve me. Yea...! He is GOD, the Holy Spirit.
Now, I just want to say to whoever read my blog. Think about those person who mean a lot to you. Cherish them. But the most that you will need to cherish is the Holy Spirit. He is the one who gives you everything. He gives you the life, experience, knowlegde and always beside you when you need helps.
"Father GOD, in my heart I thank GOD for giving me such a wonderful friends that You have prepared for me. They are amazing, special, and meaningful to me. Lord, I pray that Your blessing with flow among them as I want to bless them as well. Your Holy Spirit touch their heart as well so that they will know You the best friend they will ever have in their life. GOD, I give thanks to You for every journey I had gone through. Because You lead me all the way when I was facing difficulties. Thank You. In the name of Jesus I pray, Amen."

It is the time... (GOD is good, all the time)

Long time didn't visit and write my blog. I've been busy all the way. Now I know it is not easy to become a final year student in University. Good advise for those who still in the mid-moment in University life, you will need to pay attention and learn as much as you can. It is good if you try it your own for new things. Now talk about me. FYP?? What's that? Final Year Project. Last time always heard from my friends: "Oh no. no time for preparation la." "Sorry, I need to do my research for FYP." "Haizz..!! Don't know how to do my thesis." "WHAT's the FYP's title about?" I thought is only they are expecting for higher result and just feel stress on it. But now I know. It is a very difficult project to be accomplished. Somemore i know nothing on the FYP's title I chose. What to do? just do it lo (Nike brand :).
Funny lecturer for the first day of my class. New semester started. It is the time to be serious. "I dont want my students to be a spoon feeding student. I want a serious learner. bla bla bla... I emphasize that I want a serious learner." "What's the time now?" "Are you guys with me?" Those words will always been listened everytime in her class. Yet she is a good lecturer. But she is not a good helper. Haha!! Anyway, need to follow her style for this semester. No choise. :(
Time pass and I get my another timetable for my part time job. Monday is a busy day. 3 classes continuously. Huuu.... Tired. Anyway, GOD's grace is sufficient for me. He will strengthen me. Now I know it is the time. For He says to me. "Dont just read it. You need to live it." FYP, lecturer that want me to feed myself with the knowledge, Tired part time job... These 3 things showing me that it is a challenging semester. So, I can't just be passive anymore. It is the time to move on and take a step in front.
Today, It is a wonderful day again. All started with prayer before went out from home. Everything was lead by GOD. Finish all the registration that would need to be done. After that started the first day of my part time job. First class was fine to me. But, the second class required me to teach in English. Oh, man! I was so nervous and helpless. FYI, I am poor in English speaking. Again! What to do? Pray lo. Pray and pray and pray. So, I just spoke confidently. As a result, It's amazing. I felt myself like a lecturer. lecturing the students. Thank GOD. haha! At night. Studied some reference books on my FYP. Suddenly felt that it is interesting and want to try it out by my own. Like the feeling of "YA! I've found it!" It is good. Now friends, want to share with you a great song that I like it so much. I've been singing this song on friend's wedding for twice. Yet It still a great song in my heart. Enjoy!!

Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me. God is good (all the time...
(Psalms 23:4)

Believe... (Faith)

"If you can believe, all things are possible to him who believes."
Mark 9:23
My childhood is not a memorable and wonderful moment in my life. Yet, i feel that I have one person who loves me all the time. He teach me to understand to forget and forgive about the past and moving forward to the future. I did it and I want to continue to forget and forgive. But, who knows. Life is not just stop at what we already achieve. Learning is always lead us for improvement. GOD spoke me. He said that Do not fear and I will hold your hand to wherever you go and whatever you do. Now, I know what I m going to learn. Take a step of Faith. Last few days, many things happened that cause a huge influence to me. I feel sad and disappointed. Thank GOD I know Him. I know Jesus in my life. He gives me the authority to pray. I can tell Him whatever things I face. Hmm... now I know i need to learn to have Faith. But am I really know what is Faith? The answer is no. I am not really understand what is Faith though I have been a christian for so many years.
Let us look for Genesis 12. When GOD spoke to Abram, he obeyed at once, departing for an unknown land based only on a promise. Childless, he trusted GOD to make of him "a great nation". Sometimes, my faith is just like Abram. I only trust GOD for what He has promise me. Sometimes, I tend to approach my decision with calculation and restraint. But GOD never stop to remind me about Faith. Faith often appears where least expected and falters where it ought to thrive. Thank GOD that He gives me the authority to pray. I read an article in Daily Bread where One woman in her 90s explained, "We can pray. We got the time, and we got the faith. Some of us don't sleep much anyway. We can pray all night if needs be." And so they did. GOD let me understand to take a step of Faith is to pray. Spending your time with GOD and pray. All I need to do is pray, pray, and pray. In the last part of the article, It states that "Prayer is the voice of Faith". Thank GOD. I found the answer. Here is something special to read:
Faith looks across the storm - it does not doubt
Or stop to look at clouds and things without.
Faith does not question why when all His ways
Are hard to understand, but trusts and prays.
Friends, I have experience what GOD had showed me about Faith. Now your turn.
"Lord, I pray that my friends will find You one day in their life. I pray that they will experience You more and more in prayer. Lord, Thank You for such wonderful gift and authority You give to us. We want to pray to You. We want to spend time with You. Strengthen us Lord when we believe and trust in the Lord. In the name of Jesus. Amen".














He will Hold your hand just like A Father do.

Humble, Accept, and Learning...

So many things happened in only a short time of period. Though it was difficult, but yet i have to face them bravely and treat them as a challenges in my life.
It is to talk about someday when i was hanging out with her. Before we back home, suddenly I had a thought on closing my eyes and trust her to lead me on the front road. Therefore we did it. However, in the beginning, I was so scare. I was so afraid of what will happen next when i move a step to trust her. Thank GOD i trust her and she lead me very well. But yet still feel less confidence. It let me think of the same thing that GOD guide us. We can't see our future with confidence and we also are impossible to look at it just like when we close our eyes and we can't see the road in front. But yet GOD promise us that He will guide us in every circumstances and every difficulties. We need to learn to trust in the Lord. Learning is never ending. Our life full of challenges that we can't predict and expect. Thank you, Lord.
On Sunday services, GOD speak to me through the speaker. Before that I am facing personal problems and can't find the solution. So, The title of the message is What Holy Spirit do in our life.
First point: Holy Spirit helps us to testify GOD.
2nd point: Holy Spirit helps us to improve ourselves by always remind the weaknesses of us.
3rd point: Holy Spirit helps us to understand GOD's word.
The above points is very hard to fulfill but yet we need to learn. But before that, we need to humble ourselves and accept what Holy Spirit speak to us. Therefore we need to learn. But yet many christian know it without action. Only keep it only in heart. One real story told by the speaker. A person go and search for counseling from the pastor. He ask the pastor to advise him what should he do on the problems facing by him. Pastor said:"It is depend on you. first, u need to repent and humble yourself to GOD and surrender your life to HIM." But what breaks GOD's heart and the pastor's heart is he said he understand it has to be like that. But he said he refuse to do. He said he rather die by surrender everything to GOD. Sometimes we are like him. We are not humble enough to accept other people and learn. Sometimes we refus to learn. We thought that we are always doing the right thing because I already have GOD. A faithful people of GOD is not measured by how long you become a christian but on how humble are you to accept GOD's words and learn.
GOD, everything have change and it is more challenges in my life. It involves my family, my friends and everyone that related in my life. Lord, I just pray in my heart guide me all the way until everything is fine and well. Lord, help everyone to humble and accept and willingly to learn to be in Your plan in our life. Thank you Jesus.

Found....

One thing that I never thinking of for long time : BGR. Whats that? Figure out yourself. GOD, It is very wonderful life to me. You love me so much. You have given me the best in my life. Human interacting is amazing. You do not know each other if you never try to know them. Friends, couple, spouse, family... without trusting each other, it cannot sustain forever. But how to trust human being by giving full trust? it is impossible. Sometimes the person who you trust the most, That is the one who betray you and hurt you the most. This is true. That is why we always teach children or youth to be careful when making friends with people. Once we trust the wrong person, we will get into trouble.
But what I'm going to tell u is I have found a true friend that can be trusted. Sometimes He is cute, sometimes He is gentle, sometimes he is kind. But sometimes He will angry, sometimes He will sad and He never leave me or betray me. He always stand by my side and take care of me. He give the best to me. But yet He wants me to grow everyday. Who is He? You know I know la. He is JESUS. I found Him since the day I give myself to Him.
Now back to the first sentence i mentioned. Do you now figure out what is BGR? yea!! He had prepare for me. The best is for my life. I found that the more I know about her, the more I love her. Thank GOD for giving me the best thing in my life. Now, talk about trust. What sustain us is the LOVE from Jesus. Together we put the LOVE of Jesus in our heart. I love you....
Want to know Jesus? Here HE is...

Family

It was hot day and boring day. Just finish my exam then back hometown. It was now think back the time when facing the pressure during exam season. How to say.... There is no feeling for me after the last paper. I think because of the exam period is too long. By the way, should hv some plan to celebrate after exam. So, dota for the night. yeah!!! It was so great that i won 4 games. However, that was before i come back to my hometown.
Now, i have nothing to do. feel boring, sleepy and lazy. But I feel the satisfaction in my heart because of having wonderful family with me. Papa, mama, two sisters, niece and nephew especially my nephew. He is so cute. Thank GOD I have them. Nevertheless, everything is good but still have problems. Things go not smoothly. But still fine though there are some bad feeling among us. Now, God tells me...
"I am your guidance. I am with u all the time and by sure, I am also be with ur family."
Thank GOD. He speak to me. In my heart prompting. Thank GOD for let me understand. Family means what? Family means there is nobody left behind. O, GOD! i pray that You will also guide every family in this world. Because every family need You. "For without You, we can do nothing." For You are my Lord, The GOD of our life, our family and everyone in this world. Thank You, In the name of Jesus, Amen.