Humble, Accept, and Learning...

So many things happened in only a short time of period. Though it was difficult, but yet i have to face them bravely and treat them as a challenges in my life.
It is to talk about someday when i was hanging out with her. Before we back home, suddenly I had a thought on closing my eyes and trust her to lead me on the front road. Therefore we did it. However, in the beginning, I was so scare. I was so afraid of what will happen next when i move a step to trust her. Thank GOD i trust her and she lead me very well. But yet still feel less confidence. It let me think of the same thing that GOD guide us. We can't see our future with confidence and we also are impossible to look at it just like when we close our eyes and we can't see the road in front. But yet GOD promise us that He will guide us in every circumstances and every difficulties. We need to learn to trust in the Lord. Learning is never ending. Our life full of challenges that we can't predict and expect. Thank you, Lord.
On Sunday services, GOD speak to me through the speaker. Before that I am facing personal problems and can't find the solution. So, The title of the message is What Holy Spirit do in our life.
First point: Holy Spirit helps us to testify GOD.
2nd point: Holy Spirit helps us to improve ourselves by always remind the weaknesses of us.
3rd point: Holy Spirit helps us to understand GOD's word.
The above points is very hard to fulfill but yet we need to learn. But before that, we need to humble ourselves and accept what Holy Spirit speak to us. Therefore we need to learn. But yet many christian know it without action. Only keep it only in heart. One real story told by the speaker. A person go and search for counseling from the pastor. He ask the pastor to advise him what should he do on the problems facing by him. Pastor said:"It is depend on you. first, u need to repent and humble yourself to GOD and surrender your life to HIM." But what breaks GOD's heart and the pastor's heart is he said he understand it has to be like that. But he said he refuse to do. He said he rather die by surrender everything to GOD. Sometimes we are like him. We are not humble enough to accept other people and learn. Sometimes we refus to learn. We thought that we are always doing the right thing because I already have GOD. A faithful people of GOD is not measured by how long you become a christian but on how humble are you to accept GOD's words and learn.
GOD, everything have change and it is more challenges in my life. It involves my family, my friends and everyone that related in my life. Lord, I just pray in my heart guide me all the way until everything is fine and well. Lord, help everyone to humble and accept and willingly to learn to be in Your plan in our life. Thank you Jesus.

Found....

One thing that I never thinking of for long time : BGR. Whats that? Figure out yourself. GOD, It is very wonderful life to me. You love me so much. You have given me the best in my life. Human interacting is amazing. You do not know each other if you never try to know them. Friends, couple, spouse, family... without trusting each other, it cannot sustain forever. But how to trust human being by giving full trust? it is impossible. Sometimes the person who you trust the most, That is the one who betray you and hurt you the most. This is true. That is why we always teach children or youth to be careful when making friends with people. Once we trust the wrong person, we will get into trouble.
But what I'm going to tell u is I have found a true friend that can be trusted. Sometimes He is cute, sometimes He is gentle, sometimes he is kind. But sometimes He will angry, sometimes He will sad and He never leave me or betray me. He always stand by my side and take care of me. He give the best to me. But yet He wants me to grow everyday. Who is He? You know I know la. He is JESUS. I found Him since the day I give myself to Him.
Now back to the first sentence i mentioned. Do you now figure out what is BGR? yea!! He had prepare for me. The best is for my life. I found that the more I know about her, the more I love her. Thank GOD for giving me the best thing in my life. Now, talk about trust. What sustain us is the LOVE from Jesus. Together we put the LOVE of Jesus in our heart. I love you....
Want to know Jesus? Here HE is...

Family

It was hot day and boring day. Just finish my exam then back hometown. It was now think back the time when facing the pressure during exam season. How to say.... There is no feeling for me after the last paper. I think because of the exam period is too long. By the way, should hv some plan to celebrate after exam. So, dota for the night. yeah!!! It was so great that i won 4 games. However, that was before i come back to my hometown.
Now, i have nothing to do. feel boring, sleepy and lazy. But I feel the satisfaction in my heart because of having wonderful family with me. Papa, mama, two sisters, niece and nephew especially my nephew. He is so cute. Thank GOD I have them. Nevertheless, everything is good but still have problems. Things go not smoothly. But still fine though there are some bad feeling among us. Now, God tells me...
"I am your guidance. I am with u all the time and by sure, I am also be with ur family."
Thank GOD. He speak to me. In my heart prompting. Thank GOD for let me understand. Family means what? Family means there is nobody left behind. O, GOD! i pray that You will also guide every family in this world. Because every family need You. "For without You, we can do nothing." For You are my Lord, The GOD of our life, our family and everyone in this world. Thank You, In the name of Jesus, Amen.

It is amazing..!!!

Surprising, unbelievable, It's amazing and wonderful.
Hard to believe that I can still hold on after sleep for only one hour. Sunday if GOD's day. totally surrender to GOD. but how am I going to attend the Praise Celebration and listen to the sermon that will be shared by Pastor for I only slept one hour before the service is start. Didn't rest well, heart full of depression, sleepy face to meet with church member, etc. O, GOD, You are the strength of my heart. The word that motivates my heart always because GOD really provide and strengthen me for the past. But will it also be for this difficult moment? Undeniable, It's a amazing!

All start from last night (25th Of April). study life non-stopping sustained though it feels stressful in my heart. A lot of notes and terms need to memorize. So, stay at my friend's house to look for guidance on my question in studies. Until 3am or 4am on 26th of April. It was so sudden and feel like want to share things to friends. Unfortunately, a course mate of mine was wanting to study and was interested by my sharing. It was a good sharing between both of us. Without knowing the time pass, it already reach the time when everyone suppose to wake up and continue their daily life. My goodness, It was 6am in the morning!!! Hahaha! It's time to realize that the time was so early in the morning instead of late at night. So, went to bed and sleep. But I need to wake up at 8am. GOD helps me!

Time goes from minutes to minutes and from second to second. Just as what I had planned, wake up at 8am and went back to my own home. without doubting, straight away i lied down at the sofa and guess what..... just sleep. It was not a deep and comfortable rest but at least it considered as rest. Yet, it was still not enough. Reach home at 830am and then woke up at 9.10am. Haha! guess what..?? Again, tiredness, sleepy face just appeared on my ugly face. But, GOD is the strength of my heart. Therefore, I went for breakfast with my brother and sister-in-law. Rushing in having my breakfast due to the service time which starts at 10am.

Finally, i reach church. Wuu...huuu.... lesser members in church. So, just had a sit then start to pray in my heart.
"O, Lord. I know You are the strength of my heart. I keep meditate this word in my heart everyday and night. I desire Your presence and Your Power to feel me. Lord, This is me now that full of tiredness. But i believe by Your Grace, I can stand strong again even stronger than before. I believe and I believe and I BELIEVE. In Jesus' name, Amen"
So, guess what again. still feeling tired. The time to worship GOD started. A song that touch me with the lyrics:
I surrender all to You..... I am nothing without You....
I lay it all down at Your feet.
O, man. really touch my heart. it feels like i m really a weak person. Without GOD i am nothing. That's why I lay it all down to GOD. So, nothing was make me feeling better of the tiredness.
Next, Pastor was preaching. It was a long sermon that i didn't expected from the moment i stepped into the church. But I was totally understand and get what GOD want to speak to me through Pastor. Everything got time and season. Just need to confirm and walk close with GOD. You will certainly know when.

So, from 10am to 1pm. The service over. Again, the tiredness still there. But when I seriously look and think back, what sustained me and giving me the heart to insist to be awaken. It was the word of GOD and the presence of GOD. I know that I know that I know It comes from the strength from the Lord. Yeah! i made it by GOD's grace. Again I learned something. Jesus is the GOD gives renewal in my heart. He renewed my soul and spirit without my knowledge until He says It's time for you to rest. Haha! It is true. After the service, I continue to go my friends house for my preparation on my exam. But, when i reach there, just in a minutes, I slept deeply. Haha! Thank GOD for let me experience Him again and again.

"O, Father. I am nothing without You. In my heart, I pray GOD. guide me in my studies. Exam coming is just a few hours later. Pray that GOD pour Your understanding on the theory and notes that I need to study. Do this to my dearest friends in my life who facing exam with me as well, Lord. Thank You, Lord again for let me experience Your greatness. Bless me, my family and my friends, Lord. In Jesus' name, Amen."

Life is so wonderful. Thanks to my family and all my friends.

REMIND...

Being tired on studying for whole day. Its time to relax myself.
I found that i was lost in some of the guidance from GOD. Couldn't really understand what is need to be done first in my day. So, there is only one way to get me back into the path. Worship the Lord!!! It's a amazing and wonderful thing to be experienced.

Thank GOD that i find back the path. Remember that it was a bible verse that my cell leader had shared on the last Discipleship cell.
"Jabez cried out to the GOD of Israel, "Oh, that You would bless me and enlarge my territory! Let Your Hand be with me, and keep me from harm so that I will be free from pain." And GOD granted his request."
(1 chronicles 4:10)
The verse is the prayer that Jabez request to the Lord. I have totally put aside this prayer from my life. But it is surprise that GOD remind me again with this prayer. How it happen? Well, It is all about the souvenir that i received on my birthday in 2006.
I was shocked and feel a sense of comfort in my heart. GOD had already put in my heart that He will bless me all the time and will keep me from harm from the day i received the souvenir. But what feels disappointed was i never really take a look at it before. I believe everything has the season and time. Now GOD remind me again for He is with me all the time.

Wonderful scripture come next.
"The Lord will keep you from all harm - He will watch over your life; the Lord will watch over your coming and going both now and forevermore."
(Psalm 121:7-8)
Great promise that GOD had made for me. "Now and forever" that let me have more faith towards GOD.
In this exam season, there is no doubt that it will have a lot of stress and worries. By the grace of GOD, there is the comfort and peace in my heart. GOD is the strength of my heart. He is the healer and the restorer. In my prayer, O! GOD, continue to bless all the exam warrior to fight for their exam and comfort them with Your spirit in every difficulties moment. For Your Hand will hold and lead us to go through those moment. In the name of Jesus, Amen.

1st day of my blog

Really Thank GOD for the healing power.
as in this glory invasion season, That was really a wonderful experience from GOD.
i m healed by GOD. that was so excited and have a satisfaction in my heart.
But what is all about? Is that only just feel satisfied on the blessing that from GOD?
Luckily, I did learn something from GOD.

After being healed, it is totally change my heart towards GOD. Last night, i was reading the daily bread that used for quite time with GOD. There is no fear in every circumstances that we faces if we walk with GOD together. Jesus' disciples encountered stormy experience. They were on the Sea of Galilee when a windstorm whipped up (Mark 6:48). the storm was so violent causing His disciples feared for their lives. But Jesus walked out to them and saved them.

Thank GOD that He brought me out everytime when i was in trouble. GOD is the strength of my heart.
Today is 20, April 2009. This is the day i start to write my own blog. while listen to the music, alone in the house, was thinking someone in my heart. Those day found that it is hard for me to read and write blog. But GOD can change everything. All things are possible for GOD. now i m writing blog. Halellujah. praise the Lord. that's the miracle changes that GOD plan for me.

"O Father, continue to bless every person that related in my life. Family and friends. Pray in my heart, i will be a good testimony for them. Thank GOD for giving me wonderful gifts. Use me, mould me and strengthen me. I desire to know You more and more. In Jesus name i pray, Amen."